Baby, you're so vague

I might like you better

If we slept together

But there’s somethin

In your eyes that says

Maybe that’s never

Never say never.

Sometimes words don't mean a thing. We are so crooked in our ways. Whispering 'I love you' but actually not meaning a thing. Or better yet, letting them fall into your web while you strip their soul. Until they're lying naked and have nothing. Nothing to add. Unequipped. Armed to sin. How vicious and sexy it is.

While you play your little game, winding that other person up to want some more. They're saying "I love you, and the mess you made". You think you got her heart and their brain. But its only words. They are actually are loving the mess you made, enjoying it, not you. You are just the person who we owe the thanks to making it awfully hot. She's a freak. Turning your plan upside down and who's vicious now. Who is using who, when both want to use eachother. "That sneaky fuck!" you'd say.

You feel awful. There’s no easy way to lose your sight. You try to quit, you try to hide. Then you say something like "Sorry". But why to apologize to a person, who is just as poisonous as you. You're trying to get yourself out of your man-made web, but you sound lame.

And does she even care?

..take some drugs and get over it.

Sexy stuff.

Food, booze, sex, drugs - things that people try to hold themselves from, at least limiting the use of these to not get out of control, but boy they are great! These 4 things are considered vices of ours. They are ecstatic, aren't they? Vices that are so bad..but may be considered happiness for some.

It makes you feel free, alive. Excitement rush. You want to get into the adrenaline rush and thus the appetite grows stronger and you feed yourself with more and more things that you are not supposed to.. You want to join the party and the party wants you to feel the same glory and joy that is offered by it.

You forget the rules, feel good. You get into this trance where you try to live in a different moral construct that the rest of people. Challenge others' belief system..

Wouldn't it be fun to live your life where nothing in your life has been rated G (for general audience.. kids and stuff) an everything you have ever done would be rated R or at least PG or PG-17 etc. It would be a beautiful chaos.

Be happy. Happier than everyone around you. That pisses them off. Enjoy that. Don't be afraid. Eat what you like, have sex with who you like, play around with who you like. Dress like there's no tomorrow.

You'll have everything on your fingertips. Want everything! Be the person who has never left the party. Don't give a blink of what people think of you.



With destructive intentions, I want you to party on Saturday at Protest (GüÜTteÖö X).





Its illegal how much fun the weekends bring and what we do..

My words fell into the road..

..and I could not collect them.

Again, again and again, again I'm starting to blog. Why? I have no idea.. or I mean ideas I do have, but it's hard for me to always tell where they are coming from.

I always think that people let go oppurtunities because they over-think whats right or wrong. I mean, its very true. For example, haven't you ever let go of thinking and gone with the flow and in the end thought - man, that couldnt have felt more right and the only way it happened was because you, for once, didn't think ahead. People are crazy, mad and fucked up and I love them for this. It just turns me off when people feel good, but think they shouldn't. If it felt good, it must be right and why should you stop doing it. Go for it!

Why be embarrassed about pleasure and laughter? Why be ashamed of letting go? You need to be out of control. If you feel good about the sin, then is it a sin?

A person once told me that the worst thing a person can say to you is "I know you". And when you think about it, it is an offence. Saying this to a person is like stripping them naked of all the chances of ever surprising you or even themselves. People don't know you, and I can say that sometimes I think I don't even know myself aswell. I mean I do things, that I once say I would never do..

"You are so predictable" is a saying that I use to agitate my friends doing otherwise and being spontaneus. I know it works for me.. it turns me mad and makes me prove them wrong.

It's boring when people do 'right' things all the time, it takes away all the excitement and mystery. People like this bored me then and now they just bore me some more.

Gowiththeflow trips, unorganized nights, surprising relationships, spontaneous sex, unpredictable friends, random people, random randoms - all EXCITING.

P.S this doesn't cover killing, using others, stealing and other such crimes, because that is sick. You shouldnt ever feel right when doing this and thus it cant be right.

TAPA RUTIIN!